I went to register for the Sprint Tri this weekend and it was sold out. I was bummed, but I always try to look for the positive (ie - things happen the way they are meant to, and who knows? I could have gotten into a car accident on the way there if I had gotten in). Soooooooo, no practice tri for me before the main event.
I have TWO WEEKS from today! Let's recap my progress:
I am swimming every day and getting better. This is good.
I am slow as molasses. This is bad.
I have a great & fast bike to ride. This is good.
I don't ride it regularly. This is bad.
I run almost every day. This is good.
Again, slow. So very slow. This is bad.
I have 4.5 hours to complete this Olympic Tri. My estimates of time are:
Swim - 1.5 hours
Bike - 2 hours
Run - 1.5 hours
This is 5 hours. :(
I don't know how to make myself faster in two weeks. And all that BS about "race day adrenaline" has NEVER applied to me. I race like I train. No faster, no slower.
I am overwhelmed with how much I need to improve, but I don't feel doomed. As my mom said, "What's the WORST thing that will happen?" Well, the worst thing is that I get a DNF. And I can live with that, really. In comparison to something being wrong with the kids or not being able to work towards my current educational goals (I'm going back to college), a DNF is not the end of the world and would probably be a great learning opportunity. One I DO NOT want and will fight like Hell not to have happen, but really... it's worth trying and giving my all because at least I know I put my heart into it and went down fighting.
I hope it doesn't sound like I expect that to happen. I am almost absurdly optimistic that I can finish, despite what reality seeps in. I guess we will find out in two weeks! I am great under pressure and I feel like I have the mental part down, so I just have to drag my body behind my mind and make it work!