So... yeah. I haven't been training.

I started!  I did!  But life has been a little sketchy and truthfully, I haven't sorted it out well enough to make the time to train.  I am fairly horrified with myself.  I have the Wine & Dine Half Marathon in a week and needless to say, it won't be a PR.  But it's a Disney race done for fun & pictures, so my expectations are low.  It's also a 16 minute mile pace, so I know I can walk most of the time if necessary.

This doesn't take away from my shame of not training, though.  Like I said above, I've got some things going on in my personal life that are dragging me down and that makes it hard to find the motivation to get moving.  The ironic part is that I feel better when I work out so I am double-punishing myself.

I am not really excited about Wine & Dine for a few reasons.  First, I do not feel at top running form and that's a crappy feeling when going into a race.  Second, I am completely unmotivated to make a costume and the SparkleSkirt I wanted to order is sold out in my size.  I don't even have something cute to wear and you KNOW that's part of the reason I even run!

There is not too much I can do in the next seven days to get more prepared.  I'm going to go and do the best I can.  I'll probably finish just this side of the Balloon Ladies.  That's cool... as long as I do finish!

After the race, I am spending the week at WDW with my friend Chris without the kids.  It's the first time I've been to WDW without the babies since they were born.  I don't know how I feel about it.  I want to go and have some adult fun, but I think I've forgotten how!

This may be my whiniest post ever.  I'd love to delete it, but I feel like being honest with myself means being honest with you.  The thing is, I think mentally I am waiting to get back from W&D to really get started on my plan.  For some reason, I feel like I need to get this done and then I can concentrate on moving forward.  Lordy, I hope so.  I need to get moving.

So this post isn't a complete loss, here's a sloth handing you a flower:

Commitment Issues are BAD

I was re-reading SwimBikeMom's book yesterday and she mentioned a magnet she had on her fridge that says:

 

This is an interesting question and I have been thinking about it a lot as I plan for my 2014 races.  On one hand, I am overwhelmed at the two I've already committed to - a full marathon (really, Lisa?) and a half Ironman (almost comical).  I think I've got a training plan that will prepare me, but I have already been lax on getting back to training for the upcoming half marathon in TWO WEEKS.  My problem seems to not be in creating goals or even attempting them, my problem seem to be in consistent effort to work towards the event.  Am I not consistent because I am inherently flaky?  Am I not consistent because IF I fail, that will be a good excuse?  Do I not want to commit 100% to something because I have (well-documented - just ask my ex) commitment issues?

I don't know the answer.  But it is something I need to figure out before I am successful at anything in life, let alone these races that REQUIRE that level of commitment before the event.

I watch this new show called Boundless on the Esquire Channel.  It is about two endurance athletes attempting different races all across the world.  I love it because on race day, they seem as unprepared as I have been for races.  By that I mean, they have trained for the event (sort-of) but they aren't real, real serious or safe about it.  They never trained in open ocean water for an 8hr ocean paddle board race.  They hadn't been biking in years before a grueling mountain bike race.  Junk like that.  DUMB.  I look at them attempting things they think they can not fail and all I can think is: BUT YOU HAVEN'T TRAINED FOR THIS!!  Even if they succeed, how much easier would it have been if they were better prepared?

And that is my own problem.  I don't worry about failure too much - I am pretty convinced I can do anything I set my mind to.  But at what commitment level is my mind set to to do the work to reach that goal beforehand?

 

I think my body is amazing in that it can keep chugging along no matter the pain or fatigue it's experiencing.  I think my mind is strong because I don't give up when I know I have a goal.  So what is holding me back from committing to full time, full-court-press training?  Why is it so easy to skip the training sessions I KNOW I need to do in order to be the most successful?

 

If I figure this out for training, can I use it to change my whole life?!?

 

In looking at 2014, I'd like to do at least one race event per month, with the possible exception of March when I'll be pretty busy with World Balloon Convention, where I'll be teaching.  (Maybe a sprint tri for that month.)  I'd like to do another Oly before the half Iron but a lot of smaller races aren't scheduled yet.  I'll probably have to wait until closer to the time to see what is available within my reasonable travel distance.  I definitely want to do the Outer Banks Tri in September again to see how much I can improve on my Olympic time there with an extra year of training.  The two other major races I was considering are the Rock N Roll Full Marathon in Raleigh on my birthday (April 13th), and the Beach2Battleship in Wilmington (the half-Iron distance - I want my first full Iron to be Ironman branded).

 

Big goals.  Now I need to see if I've got the commitment to follow through on them...

 



Scotchy Scotch Scotch

This post has nothing to do with running, but everything to do with why I am chubby.

 

Best ice cream related news ever:  Ben & Jerry's Anchorman Ice Cream

Anchorman is my FAVORITE movie of all time!  Fortunately, I like butterscotch because I will be eating Anchorman ice cream regardless of the flavor.

Here's the new trailer from Anchorman 2:

 Ok, enough of that.  I rode 15 miles in a little under an hour on the stationary bike yesterday.  I am due to run 5 miles today.  Trying to do my runs later in the day or evening to get more prepared for Wine & Dine.  I'm pretty sure there is a 50% chance it won't happen since I'll have to do it after dinner and that's the time I start checking out.  I also have a volunteer meeting for the City Of Oaks Marathon.  I am going to be a course monitor since I am not running this year.  I'm thinking that it makes better sense to run in the day (when I know I will do it), than wait for evening (when I can talk myself out of it).

Back to training - speedy style!

It's been exactly one month since my first triathlon and despite my well-meaning intentions, it was also the first day I went back to the gym since then.  I know!!  I feel your scorn from here.

Wil ran with me and we totally looked this cool!

I ran 4 miles in my fastest time ever.  Wait - what?  Should I take a month off more often?

What?  I'm IN TRAINING, obvs.

Since I have three weeks to get back in shape for a half marathon, probably not.  In fact, I don't see myself slowing down until... well, maybe the end of triathlon season next year.  I can half-ass a Disney half marathon, but I can't do that for the full and I especially can't do it for a half-Ironman.  I have a plan and now I have a little momentum.  I'd also like to lose 10lbs (if possible) before I go to Wichita to make the balloon videos. I have until the first part of December for that goal.

So.... Yay for getting back to doing what I should be!

I'm tired just thinking about it.

Yes, exhausted.  "Thinking about what?" you ask? 

It's the 10pm start of the Wine & Dine Half three weeks from today. 

 

This is me at 6:30pm most nights.  It's about time to call it a day.

I go to bed at 10pm.  The only reason I don't go to bed earlier is because the kids are up.  But I'm tired!  I get up before 6am and go non-stop until dinner is over and I can start to relax.

Here's my expected response to waiting in Corral I while all the earlier corrals go first.

I keep telling myself I need to run later in the day, to get used to it... but I am soooooooo tired by 9pm that it is almost a comical conversation with myself.

Self: "It's 9pm!  How 'bout a quick run before bed?
"Self? Self?!?  Wake up!"

 I do have a chemical helper, if need-be.  My doctor gave me something called NuVigil, which is for people who work night shift and can't stay up.  It's also to keep soldiers alert during combat.  Is this doping?  I'm not sure I like this option!

The race should last until at least 1am for me. 
I was not fully aware that there was a "1" twice in the same day since I am never awake for both.

I do have three weeks to practice staying up!  Is that enough time??  I'm not even concerned about the run training (which I really should be!).  I am worried about maintaining alertness and not falling over during the race.  Or worse!  At the after-party that goes on until 4am.  

 

Finish line photo.  Smiles and then night-night.

I plan to take it really easy on Saturday so that I am rested.  No parks and maybe even a nap if I can manage it.  I am not much of a napper, though.  I guess the next three weeks need to be spent staying up for 15 minutes later each night.  Wish me luck!  This will be my biggest challenge!!

The fear of the BALLOON LADIES!!

Me at the Tinkerbell Half in Disneyland.
Mainstreet - No balloons in sight.

Have you heard of the Balloon Ladies?  If so, you've probably been at a RunDisney event.  They are the last people to cross the starting line and keep the 16 minute mile pace.  If you fall behind them, you have until the next mile marker or you'll get swept.  And "swept" means you board the Bus Of Shame and get taken to the finish line.  It's a scary thought indeed.

Being a real life Balloon Lady (in that I'm a lady that does balloon decor), I have always been semi-offended that RunDisney has turned balloons into something that strikes fear into the hearts of people at the back of the pack, but at least it sounds like the actual ladies themselves are nice.

Here's a new Wall Street Journal article on the process:
http://online.wsj.com/news/articles/SB10001424052702304561004579137713459355656

Mainstreet at WDW - Princess Half
Lots of tutus, but no Balloon Ladies!

I personally have never seen the Balloon Ladies - and hope never to do so!  I am starting in the 3rd corral from the last at the Wine & Dine, so I'll have less time to take pictures if I want to stay well ahead of them.  It looks like I will have about a 20 minute head start.

I am back from Boston and will start training tomorrow.  And great news!  My week-long trip to Wichita that was to be the entire last week of October was postponed to December.  This will make it MUCH easier to maintain training before the W&D.  I'm not worried about finishing, but I would like to stop for pictures and that does mean I have to do some hustling. 

I've also come to a conclusion about costuming, which is:  I'm not going to do it.  I think I'm going to get a cute Sparkle Skirt and just call it a day.  MAYBE some lights to put on myself somewhere, but I don't want to fuss with a costume right now.  I did the whole dress up thing for the Princess and it wasn't near as fun as I had envisioned.  It was hot and I felt goofy.  And not Mickey's friend Goofy, either. The kind that makes you a little sorry you were wearing a giant, puffy wig in 500% humidity.

And, don't be afraid of real life Balloon Ladies! 
We make stuff like giant wall-through Hershey's Kisses:



MMMMMM, chocolate...

 

And pretty butterflies:

I think maybe he caught my case of crazy eyes.



Blogging on the move!

I downloaded the Blogger app as I sit here in the airport. I am headed to Boston for three days.  Training is on hold since I packed light and that means no running shoes or clothes. I work on my feet for 12+ hours on two of the days and fly home the third, so I think of that as somewhat of an endurance challenge. 

I feel like I have had a mini epiphany in my running over the past few days. I never seem to be able to maintain a run for longer than 3 minutes before intervaling and/or I stop intervals and only walk at about the halfway point of any distance. I know this is all mental and I need to break through this barrier. I believe I have a new mental tool to try next time I want to give in to walking and I can't wait to try it when I get home. Wil wants to start going to the gym after school so I'm excited to get the kids into a workout routine as well. The next 4 weeks are going to be kinda crazy, though, and not very routine. But... We'll do the best we can. 

Here's a pic of me and Zaine to see if I can make photos work with the mobile app:

I'm pretty sure I have "crazy eyes" in this photo!  

Ok, so I have a new mental outlook on running and a new plan to start hopefully on Wednesday. Until then, it's travel and balloons for me!